PERSISTENCE
HEY, and guess what? Steveroni, (a.k.a. ME) "tech-help-a-roni" fixed his own Internet connection, and then the router went on the blink. Daughter C had a new router (gift from two years ago!) so I installed that shiny box, configured two computers, and we are ON, baby!!! I believe PG was happy also...I KNOW it! I was always the guy who BROKE things, not the one who mended them!
I tell you that life has meaning again. There IS a Santa Clause, Virginia...
Well, I knew that blogging had become my obsession--for at least a year. I spend so much time at this machine, and rob time from many parts of my life to feed the blog, Face Book, the poems, and daily AA meetings and service commitments.
What a phony, what a fake am I...to write about about my life of freedom, PEACE, serenity, love all and everything blah blah blah!
Even my violin playing has suffered somewhat, because I no longer find the time--even one hour a day--to practice. Fortunately the experience of many years has saved that part of my work--so far.
It has been two days since I have gotten into "serious comment mode"...and I feel guilty about THAT as well! Tomorrow is time to make an appointment with my favorite psychiatrist who prepares and serves coffee at Starbucks. Others call him "Barista". I call him "Doktor"....as in Doktor, save me from computer addiction, blogging compulsion, my own self-centeredness...and make me a quadruple espresso,no cream, etc. Forgot to mention my HUGE "caffeine-habit".
It occurs to me, had I not written this blog I'd feel lots better about myself. I would not have realized that I have all these "problems" all this crap.
But I will not drink alcohol tonight--which segues into another topic:
I tell you that life has meaning again. There IS a Santa Clause, Virginia...
Well, I knew that blogging had become my obsession--for at least a year. I spend so much time at this machine, and rob time from many parts of my life to feed the blog, Face Book, the poems, and daily AA meetings and service commitments.
What a phony, what a fake am I...to write about about my life of freedom, PEACE, serenity, love all and everything blah blah blah!
Even my violin playing has suffered somewhat, because I no longer find the time--even one hour a day--to practice. Fortunately the experience of many years has saved that part of my work--so far.
It has been two days since I have gotten into "serious comment mode"...and I feel guilty about THAT as well! Tomorrow is time to make an appointment with my favorite psychiatrist who prepares and serves coffee at Starbucks. Others call him "Barista". I call him "Doktor"....as in Doktor, save me from computer addiction, blogging compulsion, my own self-centeredness...and make me a quadruple espresso,no cream, etc. Forgot to mention my HUGE "caffeine-habit".
It occurs to me, had I not written this blog I'd feel lots better about myself. I would not have realized that I have all these "problems" all this crap.
But I will not drink alcohol tonight--which segues into another topic:
PERSISTENCE
As a member of Alcoholics Anonymous, I must address my truly favorite subject, if even just a touch:
Someone told us early this morning which was THE most important AA meeting he ever attended. (And right here I said to myself: "The FIRST one, Dummy"!) As it turned out, he said "The second one."
It would have been a simple matter to leave after meeting number one...but he came back the very next day, and did not drink between meetings.
And I recalled, the same was with my experience. One meeting only got me to think what a fool I was to BE there, what a waste of good "drinking" time. But something which was said to me, like a challenge (in my twisted mind!). Someone told me, "Well, Steve--all you have to do is stay sober and come back next week."
In my words, "stay sober" meant DON'T DRINK--that was how I translated it. And so, using that same persistence with which I practiced violin nightly in the cold wintry "studio" of the horse barn, I set out to "show them". What I thought was will power--well, it was persistence. And I've been persistent ever since that day in March 1974.
Someone told us early this morning which was THE most important AA meeting he ever attended. (And right here I said to myself: "The FIRST one, Dummy"!) As it turned out, he said "The second one."
It would have been a simple matter to leave after meeting number one...but he came back the very next day, and did not drink between meetings.
And I recalled, the same was with my experience. One meeting only got me to think what a fool I was to BE there, what a waste of good "drinking" time. But something which was said to me, like a challenge (in my twisted mind!). Someone told me, "Well, Steve--all you have to do is stay sober and come back next week."
In my words, "stay sober" meant DON'T DRINK--that was how I translated it. And so, using that same persistence with which I practiced violin nightly in the cold wintry "studio" of the horse barn, I set out to "show them". What I thought was will power--well, it was persistence. And I've been persistent ever since that day in March 1974.
Join me in being PERSISTENT today?
(That means SOBER!)
And let's LIVE today!
Peace, Peeps!
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