DRINKING ALCOHOL TAUGHT ME HOW TO FLY
THEN IT TOOK AWAY THE SKY

Friday, December 31, 2010

I LIVE HERE

Re-Post from December 31, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2011


Frequently, in getting to know blogger-Peeps, 
I wonder, "Where do you live? What does 
your house look like? Your yard?"  
This is where steveroni lives...

WHERE DO YOU LIVE?

And I am so ever grateful to have a place to live. I do know what it is, to stand in the cold at midnight, snow swirling about howling winds. And I am there shivering with runny nose, fever, wet feet in soggy socks and shoes, feeling OH! so sorry for myself--you know the drill--"Nobody loves me...nobody cares!" I wish I had a hat.



Yeah, right. Boo-hoo-hoo! It is snowing so hard, several inches have accumulated while I'm standing there waiting for a bus--hopefully, heated. My ears are freezing, and my fingers also. If only I had a hat. "Achoo!"


Must remember to get my violin out of hock, and see if these fingers will still do the thing. Where did I leave that hat?



NOTE: I had pawned  my violin (worth $950 at the time) for $5...to buy a quart of "good" vodka. Two weeks later they wanted $17 for it's retrieval. The vodka, with my system of rationing, had lasted seven hours.


Ten more years of this kind of life brought me to my knees--literally--in 1974. I have not had a drink since. My gratitude is ongoing, characterized by activity in the groups of Alcoholics Anonymous. There I found, in twelve steps, a way of life...which makes life worth living.


Many of you Peeps are friends who I never have met, and probably will not experience that face-to-face joy of meeting. But I love you--ALL of you. And as we trudge this road of happy destiny, this road of Poems, Paintings, Music, Love and SOBRIETY, I am humbled. God has granted me SO many gifts, temporal, spiritual, and certainly not the least...YOU Peeps, who I cherish. And I now own eight hats!



Love.
Steve E


HAPPY NEW YEAR!


(See you in 2011)

44 comments:

Mike Golch said...

what a fantanstic post.I have pawn my camera for booze,but never a musical instrument.I never could afford one. I like you sober daze counter,mine is a little harder to see mainlt because it is darker.

Sarah said...

wonderfully put.

we love you too!

Audrinna said...

Happy new year my friend

Secretia said...

Steve, in the winter I always think of the homeless people all over this earth living outside year round. Then gratitude washes over me like a wave.

Have a nice New Years Eve.

Secretia

Syd said...

Happy New Year Steve. I hope 2010 is a good year. Take it easy and thanks for all your thoughtful comments.

Angeles said...

life have given you a good present.
A nice house and a nice life.I don't know your country, I live in a small village near the Mediterranean, but I know that history of money and alcohol so I understand your feeling.
Happy New year Steve and Peeps!!

Besos:)

Enchanted Oak said...

I feel your love, Steve! Here's a hug back for all your wonderful posts. I will never forget that Beethoven post of yours. Happy new year to you and your blessed family.

~ Tabitha ~ said...

All the best to you too Steve !!

AlmightyHeidi said...

Happy New Year

Kim A. said...

Your sharing about pawning your violin carries such a lesson for me. I no longer sell out for so little the parts of myself that I love.

Your house is beautiful..although i don't see any snow...odd...

Namaste

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

You can put no real price on love or desire can you... and god will spare no expense bringing it all back to him!

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I love you and hope you have a safe, joy filled and blessed new years celebration!

Gaia said...

It's a lovely home Steve. Happy New Year and many blessings for a healthy and prosperous 2010.

Alice Audrey said...

Steve, I am very glad you have a decent place to lay your hat now. Though I've never been completely without a roof for more than a few days at a whack, I know that pitiful feeling.

So far as where I'm living now? In a mobile home in the best trailer court in town. Seriously, for a trailer park, it's quite upscale - gated and everything.

Want to see?

http://www.aliceaudrey.com/?p=1151

Ok, that's cheating, but it really is part of where I live.

Akannie said...

So...that's the house I've been looking for!!!!

Happy New Year, my friend. May all the gods in all the worlds smile on you and yours. I am so blessed to have met the two of you and have you in my tiny little life.


Crazy about the violin... I will NEVER forget the blessing of you in my backyard, playing happy birthday to me on my 19th anniversary.

Here's to a grand 2010 ~!!!!!

Love and kisses, Anniek

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Ed G. said...

8 hats and living in FL? wow!

Anyway, happy New Years and may neither of us ever have to be that cold and alone again.

Blessings and aloha...

Findon said...

Its an odd thing this blogging, a little like being in the fellowship I reckon. We know so much intimate detail about one and other, give so much support and find so much recognition, yet we almost will never meet, don't know what each other looks like. But this blogging and the community I am now part of, thanks to you Steve, has become a small corner of my life. A quiet lane that I walk down now and again throughout the week and muse on what has been happening, what is grating against the world with me and what is joyous. I am please that we are all part of it. Thank you Steve, you and PG have a good year now.

erin said...

A beautiful house. Happy New Year!

Wanda's Wings said...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Thanks for you words of encouragement on my blog.

Nevine said...

The most beautiful thoughts, Steve. It's wonderful you are so thankful for your blessings; so few are. I wish you more blessings in 2010, and what a blessing it is to know you, such a positive spirit! Happy New Year, Steve!!!

xo
Nevine

Kathy M. said...

Thanks for your blog. Happy New Year.

Nevine said...

Steve, am I not getting it? My comment is right up here!!! I'm lost. But still wishing you lots of the best. You know... But let me know what you mean... really!!!

Nevine

Indigo said...

May love and peace follow you into this brand new decade dear friend. I'm honored to know you and I are celebrating life this night - sober. (Hugs)Indigo

Gabriella Moonlight said...

Happy New Year dear Steve, a joy of mine this year was to meet you and PG and enjoy dinner and a meeting. I love the picture and trudging the road of happy destiny with you...
much love
gabi

Fireblossom said...

Happy New Year, Steve!!!

I am grateful every day for my little Queendom, my house. No palm trees in front of mine, though, up here in Michigan!

^^You got to meet Gabi Moonlight and Kristin H! Some people have all the luck! Grumble mumble...

;-)

Sylvia said...

That's a beautiful home. If I ever have the chance, I'll send you the best hat I can find - good, warm and nice. Hope you have a wonderful year. Love from Sylvia and family.

catvibe said...

Happy Happy New Year Darling Steve! I'm so glad to have met you in 2009 and I look forward to all the beauty you bring in 2010. Hugs and love!

Hap Joy Free said...

Where ever YOU are, you are at home!

Beautiful house, but more gorgeous people who live in it.

Happy 2010,Steve and Anna!

....Wishing you and all you love a brave, fun and loving recovering year ahead.

Here is my new blog, hope you will continue to visit!

http://hapjoyfree.blogspot.com/

Christina

That Gal Kiki said...

It's amazing, the bliss we can create for ourselves. Happy New Year, new friend. :)

emilyism.com said...

That is a lovley post. I can totally relate, I also wonder about blogging friends and where they live and am also very grateful to have a home! I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful New Year and look forward to getting to know you better through your blog!! Emily
www.emilyism.com

Crown of Beauty said...

I stopped by your blog to leave you a New Year greeting...and was overjoyed to find two posts since your last post...

And how fortunate is the man who knows he is fortunate...to have eight hats, a violin, a wife, children, and a house.

Others do not know what treasures they have.

You have a good heart, dear friend. I have never seen your face...but am fortunate enough to know your heart!

Blessings of peace and hope be yours for 2011 Steve-roni.

From Lidj and my whole family (that includes my three dogs - a pug, a dachshund, and a basset hound)

wolfie185 said...

Happy New Year to you also Steve!! When things are bad now, we need to remember when things were really bad back then, thanks for reminding me.

RNSANE said...

Hello, Steve, it's so good to see you. I think I sent you my New Year's poem....hope so. I have missed you. Wish you a wonderful year ahead, my friend!

Wind said...

Hey, Steve!
Here in Romania is a great winter!
Snow, cold, frozen seagulls and dogs and of course...all of us are waiting for summer...ha ha
Happy New Year, my friend!
Be happy and healthy!
I wish you all my best from Romania!

Shadow said...

you ARE the happy ending!!! happy new year steveroni!

SILVER said...

Happy New Year!
How true the gratefulness for shelter!

Btw, it may not be 'Joe's Bar and Grille', but i can make divine hamburgers too ! ;D

Hugs,
Silver

Ces said...

Happy New Year Steveroni. I have not been blogging much. I have been faced with great challenges and find myself falling short so often. So if you need to get in touch with me, you know where to find me. Yes. I am grateful for my home, humble abode. It is my refuge.

Elizabeth R. said...

Awesome blog....I remembery pawning some rifles from the revolutionary war...2 for 60 bucks...my mother found the pawn shop and bought them back thank goodness! Well I'm counting days, and I'm doing well, but I appreciate your honesty and how real your blog is...It's deep without trying to be deep.

Elisabeth
www.countingdays.org

GPS cell phone said...

happy new year!!!!cheap electronics

Janice said...

.Hey Steve I don't know if you remember me,but I found an editor and writer to help me with my book. we are just at the beginning stage's .hope to tell you sometime this year where to buy the book
Happy new year

Janice

Eli said...

Great post my friend. It is good to remember the stupid stuff we do when we're not sober. As a musician, it especially hits me to hear about a beautiful instrument like your violin being in hock for $5. Wow. Happy new year!

izzy said...

Hey ! Happy New Year! I didn't know you were posting- and it didn't come up, that I saw-
Great re-post! I never pawned anything but my soul...we know what it takes to walk back out of those wood(s)
Glad to hear from you.

katrin said...

Love you too!
How's your violin?
Beautiful place you got!