Amended: Because of minor laser surgery Tues. morning, I will be later than usual responding to comments, etc. If you care to pray, direct your thoughts to Dr Lynn, that God guides her hand to rid me of the foggy vision. Thank you.
YESTERDAY
"Good morning God, this is Steveroni, reporting for duty."
If only I had knelt and spoke those words "upon arising", then I might not feel Restless, Irritable, and Discontent ("RID") toward the end of this day. So much spinning of wheels. So much time spent, with no results.
True, I hurt nobody today, at least physically. True, I went to two AA meetings. True, peeps at home kept on me for this or that--fix this, when are you going to do that? Usually, stuff like that washes right off. But in these cases I "sounded off"...and made an Amend.
Let me walk back through the day. One friend celebrated 8 years of sobriety, while a girl she sponsors had 6 years today, the same day! Sitting near them was a guy who just came back, first meeting after 5 years "back out" drinking. Lost everything; wife, children, house, car, boat, country club membership and job. He has nothing, living with friends who move him around day after day. Asked why he "went out" after 11 years of being sober, he said simply, "AA didn't work for me."
Ahhh! Another topic. Surprise! AA does NOT work! It is a gift from God, a program for living--a way of life--which WE recovering Peeps do the "work". AA has saved many millions of Peeps from early death, or lives of chaotic misery or insanity.
This program, if practiced ("worked") with some diligence, practically guarantees an alcoholic will live with a degree of really true happiness, serenity even.
And I will not have to dull my senses by attacking the central nervous system with booze, which is basically ethyl alcohol..."Have another drink?" "OH! Yes, thank you!". Ethyl alcohol, also used as a detergent, formerly the normal anesthetic used in operating rooms. I drank enough of it to be anesthetized for a LONG LIFE (DEATH?) of inebriation.
TODAY
So today is really a HAPPY day for me, another day sober, a day of reflection, a day of reconnoitering, gathering together the troops, working in the yard, praying until it becomes praising, and I will go to a meeting tonight.
Love you, Peeps! Thanks for reading...
