DRINKING ALCOHOL TAUGHT ME HOW TO FLY
THEN IT TOOK AWAY THE SKY

Monday, May 10, 2010

YESTERDAY AND TODAY



Amended: Because of minor laser surgery Tues. morning, I will be later than usual responding to comments, etc. If you care to pray, direct your thoughts to Dr Lynn, that God guides her hand to rid me of the foggy vision. Thank you.

 YESTERDAY

"Good morning God, this is Steveroni, reporting for duty."

If only I had knelt and spoke those words "upon arising", then I might not feel Restless, Irritable, and Discontent ("RID") toward the end of this day.  So much spinning of wheels.  So much time spent, with no results. 


True, I hurt nobody today, at least physically. True, I went to two AA meetings. True, peeps at home kept on me for this or that--fix this, when are you going to do that? Usually, stuff like that washes right off. But in these cases I "sounded off"...and made an Amend.

Let me walk back through the day. One friend celebrated 8 years of sobriety, while a girl she sponsors had 6 years today, the same day! Sitting near them was a guy who just came back, first meeting after 5 years "back out" drinking. Lost everything; wife, children, house, car, boat, country club membership and job. He has nothing, living with friends who move him around day after day. Asked why he "went out" after 11 years of being sober, he said simply, "AA didn't work for me."

Ahhh! Another topic. Surprise! AA does NOT work! It is a gift from God, a program for living--a way of life--which WE recovering Peeps do the "work".  AA has saved many millions of Peeps from early death, or lives of chaotic misery or insanity. 


This program, if practiced ("worked") with some diligence, practically guarantees an alcoholic will live with a degree of really true happiness, serenity even. 

And I will not have to dull my senses by attacking the central nervous system with booze, which is basically ethyl alcohol..."Have another drink?"  "OH! Yes, thank you!".  Ethyl alcohol, also used as a detergent, formerly the normal anesthetic used in operating rooms. I drank enough of it to be anesthetized for a LONG LIFE (DEATH?) of inebriation.


TODAY

So today is really a HAPPY day for me, another day sober, a day of reflection, a day of reconnoitering, gathering together the troops, working in the yard, praying until it becomes praising, and I will go to a meeting tonight.

Love you, Peeps! Thanks for reading.
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27 comments:

Syd said...

Good luck with the surgery. I hope all goes well.
We use ethanol for preserving specimens. It is the pickling juice of choice. Imagine what it does to the brain and other organs....

Cindy said...

Great post. Hope the surgery is a success!
Could you imagine if AA was something a person could sign up for and have it work? Crazy. THAT wouldn't work for me as I love the process of the program (Al Anon in my case). I love the "ahas" when I'm at my lowest.

Katherine said...

Hey there Steve...I wanted to wish you all the best with your eye surgery. It sounds to me like you might be having cataracts surgery. I pray for your doc that she does her job well.
If it is cataract surgery...you aren't going to know yourself afterwards. I know a few people whom have had the surgery and are amazed at how life changes for them afterwards.
Thinking of you! Sending healing prayers your way... cheers & bless

linda said...

i'll be doing it, steve, for you....no cares, dear man, you shall be fine and pretty as a picture when you're all done getting prettied up... ;)

Sam Liu said...

Glad today is going well for you, Steveroni! Remain positive, strong and determined, that's the best thing we can do :D

Sherry said...

I just said a prayer for you and Dr. Lynn!

gregj said...

I'm sure Dr. Lynn will do fine. I'll say a quick prayer anyway.
I'll probably be under that knife or light some day myself.

Last drink was 4/10/92. I have half your time, but each day is all that counts.

Thanks

Kristin H. said...

Good luck with the surgery, Steve. Is this a re-do on an eye? Or a new surgery all together?

Praying for you...

Brian Miller said...

glad today is a happy one...prayers for you and for the doctor...look forward to 'seeing' you on the other side.

Nevine said...

I'll be thinking of you, Steve. And you will come out of that OR just beaming from your eyes before your lips...

Nevine

JStar said...

Positive story :)

Dulce said...

Oh my Sweet Peep...
I'll be thinking of you all day long until I get new CLEAR news from you...
Everything will be ok 'cause I'll pray ... all your peeps will.
Love ya!

G-Man said...

Jeepers Creepers, I hope you get clear Peepers!!!

Ann said...

Congrats on the laser surgery - I hear it is amazing!!!! You are in my prayers!

chitowngreg said...

All the best with the procedure. Look forward to hearing how it went.

drybottomgirl said...

Good luck on your surgery. HP will make sure you are fine. We discussed at our Saturday meeting how some people can come into the program and grasp it right away, while others struggle over, and over....AA does work. For those who get it right away - how lucky and for those who struggle the door is always open, the opportunity is always there....

Marie said...

I hope your recovery from surgery goes as well as your recovery from alcoholism seems to be going based on your blog. Glad to read your stuff cuz then I am not thinking about my stuff! And as far as working the program goes for me, well...I am a slooooow learner...

Angeles said...

I give my prayer for you my friend, everything will be fine, I'm sure.
You made me laugh with the expression je je. Now I realize that does not say so in your country. It will be ha ha? is like :) :)
Luck!!
See you soon
Besos:)
y Bendiciones.

The Turning Point said...

Wish you well.
Had the procedure myself in February.
"On a clear day you can see forever." Really helped my night driving, no glare.

Jim

Ces said...

Happy Soberday!

Mr. Steveroni, my blog was only offline for a few hours while I reorganized some old posts. So you are welcome!

I have not been blogging much but I may drop by from time to time.

When is your birthday?

Jingle said...

uplifting!

Carolynn said...

I made poor choice this morning, myself. It happens and I will do better tomorrow.

Well done, with your sobriety. Best wishes for a successful surgery and speedy recovery.

Blessings,
Carolynn

Heather's Mom said...

Praise God! Great post! Hope the surgery went well today.
Gratitude.
God bless.

Ces said...

Wow, thank you for the compliments. I don't remember a cup on the knee but here are "The Ivory Babies" - http://cesandherdishes.blogspot.com/2010/02/ivory-babies.html

Gabriella Moonlight said...

I hope the surgery went well, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Beautiful post! Thank you as always!
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Laura said...

gratitude...that's the way to live life to the fullest! I hope all went perfectly with your surgery stevie...so tha you can see as clearly with your eyes as you do with your heart!!!

Scott said...

praying this morning for your surgery! indeed AA itself doesn't work, it's we who work it with HP and the fellowship of AA members :-)