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Friday, May 8, 2009

Wants, Desires, Needs

AA--SOME BENEFITS


The trouble is that I keep reading that a certain sickness is involved in becoming attached to people, places, or things. So I want to take my mind away from the past, and not be in tomorrow, but just linger and savor each moment as it arrives. And this I am able to now do, less than perfectly, but with a daily search of God's Will for me.

My head has a tendency to wander out of this moment, into the past, and the countless fond memories of people, places, and things l have welcomed, nurtured, treasured, loved, and lost. Being human, it is the good and wonderful moments I remember most. The bad...is oft interred.

As for the present, I wish to be loved--simply loved for myself. I desire gentle understanding, laughter, consolation, compassion, empathy, support, reprimand, guidance--in other words I wish to know the care and love of others. Without this, life seems somewhat unfilled.

Friday morning I attended an AA meeting with my sponsor. Afterwards, he and I met at a picnic table outside the meeting place, and talked for more than an hour. This is SO comforting. What a benefit we have in AA, especially me! My sponsor was for years a Domestic Relations Therapist. Now retired, I reap the benefit of some of that lode of experience. It is a spiritual happening for me to upload my mind's thoughts and my soul's desires to his computer-brain, then draw on his knowledge. What a blessing!

So I'll just do a little "Living-and-Let-Living" and keep trudging the road...and keep blogging No Matter What, and stay sober No Matter What!

Friends will continue to be friends, or they were not friends in the first place. But you bloggers, well you are another story. You have become a huge part of my sobriety, and I am grateful for that. It is probably the reason I try to answer as many bloggers each day with appropriate (well, sometimes!) comments.

I firmly believe that God loves us all--and I love YOU-all!

In LOVE and Service,
Sincerely.
Steve E

15 comments:

Shadow said...

this echoes just right!

dAAve said...

Have a GREAT weekend Steve-O.

Prayer Girl said...

GOOD!

GOOD BLOG!

ME

Kristin H. said...

You are loved, Steve-O.

Indigo said...

It took me forever to get the concept that life is a learning experience. When we get to the point we feel we no longer have anything to learn from someone else, or in life - we've done something wrong and need to go back and reassess what life is about. (hugs)Indigo

Banana Girl said...

I love that "a little more living and let living...". Boy do I ever need to remember that. Thanks for the huge reminder about all aspects of the program. Guidance in all things when God inspired cannot be usurped. Trudge on Dear Alkie! J

Ed G. said...

I'm grateful to be a part of any community that includes you...

Mary Christine said...

Have a great Saturday Steve.

Mike Golch said...

Steve,I'm with you 1,000%Noiw matter what I'll be sober,no matter what I will not smoke again.I hope that you have a GRRRRRRREAT DAy today and a fantanstic weekend.Mike G. said that!

Gin said...

You are an encouragement to so many people Steve. You have no idea. When my husband is having sober moments I usually end up sharing with him something I have read on your blog and it always seems to touch him. Thank you.

Syd said...

Yes, the bad can be interred. I like to revisit the past in a positive way that makes me have a desire to not repeat some of my mistakes. I learn from what has come before.

Lou said...

When a sponsor is that kind of good friend also, it makes for one special relationship. I'm blessed with that also, Steve-0-Pal.

david mcmahon said...

Came here from Shadow. Friends are defined by many factors, Steve, but the greatest learning curve is understanding ourselves.

Moannie said...

As someone who has no desire for alchohol but is a nicotine addict, I applaud you.

Post of the Day...of course and deservedly so.

Atiyanna said...

And we love you too! I really should keep on top of my reading....I have a ton of blog entries to catch up on. Enjoy your day my friend!
~A