The trouble is that I keep reading that a certain sickness is involved in becoming attached to people, places, or things. So I want to take my mind away from the past, and not be in tomorrow, but just linger and savor each moment as it arrives. And this I am able to now do, less than perfectly, but with a daily search of God's Will for me.
My head has a tendency to wander out of this moment, into the past, and the countless fond memories of people, places, and things l have welcomed, nurtured, treasured, loved, and lost. Being human, it is the good and wonderful moments I remember most. The bad...is oft interred.
As for the present, I wish to be loved--simply loved for myself. I desire gentle understanding, laughter, consolation, compassion, empathy, support, reprimand, guidance--in other words I wish to know the care and love of others. Without this, life seems somewhat unfilled.
Friday morning I attended an AA meeting with my sponsor. Afterwards, he and I met at a picnic table outside the meeting place, and talked for more than an hour. This is SO comforting. What a benefit we have in AA, especially me! My sponsor was for years a Domestic Relations Therapist. Now retired, I reap the benefit of some of that lode of experience. It is a spiritual happening for me to upload my mind's thoughts and my soul's desires to his computer-brain, then draw on his knowledge. What a blessing!
So I'll just do a little "Living-and-Let-Living" and keep trudging the road...and keep blogging No Matter What, and stay sober No Matter What!
Friends will continue to be friends, or they were not friends in the first place. But you bloggers, well you are another story. You have become a huge part of my sobriety, and I am grateful for that. It is probably the reason I try to answer as many bloggers each day with appropriate (well, sometimes!) comments.
I firmly believe that God loves us all--and I love YOU-all!
In LOVE and Service,