Tuesday I had another Laser session on my eyes. It brought to mind several years ago when I had cataracts removed, and lenses implanted at the same time. What fun! What a beautiful escape from reality, the anesthesia. To be knocked out, wake up 45 minutes later, with no hangover, not one single ill effect.
Although I was not allowed to drive home (because of the anesthetic), it was "instant vision"...I could SEE!!! Forms, design, outline, street signs, red from green, house numbers, all were visible and clear from the beginning. Miracle? Who knows? I believe my mere existence is a miracle. So there!
I liken this newly acquired, instantly new and wonderful personal vision to a sometime revelation or inspiration coming straight from you bloggers, and which I happened to read. I might (and DO often) receive INSTANT internal vision to a spiritual claim, or moral issue, of which I had been hitherto blinded. This is simply something which I had once known, but later held in complete denial, being so immersed in self-centeredness. Is it not interesting, that with minimum training I know how to obviate truth. To me it is scary that I--or anyone--has the capability to see my world and my self in a light devoid of light, in a darkness which could last forever. What misguided power! What encumbered freedom!
Hopefully this post is not too far off-the-trail to be published in our small setting. However, it is my feeling, thinking, of this moment. There is nobody to say to me, "Come"--and I cometh, or--"GO" and I goeth!!! Thank God, there is still freedom, and always shall be, in the individual soul, which can NEVER be taken away by outside entity.
The world might pull out my fingernails, cut off my ear, freeze me or burn. The world can shred my heart into tiny pieces, bring me to a tearful, seeming hopeless place. But the world cannot, CAN NOT touch my soul without my willingness, my permission, my consent. No Matter What!
Even should nobody read this, at least I got to write it, and it seems these days, that writing is the only venue in which I can think. Is that what age does? Whatever!!! I have in front of me an EXCITING summer of travel, meeting and greeting friends, actually, in many places. This portends plenty of blogging ahead.
Drawing from private collection.