"Things" don't bug me.
Any more. Much. YEAH...RIGHT! ;-)
I started to write simply that "things don't bug me". Then I got to re-thinking that statement. Oh well, so things really DO bother me? But it turns out that only ME bothers me. Most other "things" are what and how they are supposed to be--usually, that is.
That elusive word in the Serenity Prayer: WISDOM.
For many years conceptual *wisdom* escaped me, though I tried. I DID try! Wisdom to Know the Difference. "Why is it so much simpler for others", I thought. I fought it and thought it. I gritted my teeth and tried--like some people pray, making it a strenuous activity. So I stopped that. Guess what? No longer concerned, the wisdom-to-know-the-difference was granted me.
So now I have wisdom (come on, YOU know what kind I'm meaning here--grin!), and working backwards in the Serenity Prayer, it is now the Courage to Change which is giving me so much trouble. It was easy to own that courage to change when I did not know WHAT to change. Damn "wisdom!!!"
VISITOR from Chicago
This morning at a meeting one of the dozen visitors from "up Nowath" announced he was from Chicago. A little later, one of our Naples Peeps, a regular said, "I got sober in Chicago". In my own formerly-habitual manner I wished to say, "Well, I got sober in Chicago. Once. For about two hours! Then I woke up, and started in on my vodka again." Well, so much for resolution. Now, where did I stash that bottle?
On alcoholic "COMPARISONS"...
Ya know how many of us compare with one another's drunk stories, and sober stories. Some say, "Oh, I was better than HIM!" Or..."I drank more than HER!". In other words, the old "I'm better than" and "I'm worse than" syndrome. Well, for a long time now, I have felt--truly--no better nor worse than. I am only the word "than"....(please do not ask me what I mean here--I do not know--grin!)
The word here is not to compare, but to Identify--I now Identify with the THINKING, I don't compare with the DRINKING--so important, this.
Last, certainly not least--for today--STAYING HAPPY
Peeps do not disturb me much, no matter what they espouse, or say--except on weekends...well, also week DAYS, I guess--grin! Actually, that was a lie--I am bothered less and less about what peeps think or say about me...because I have found they don't think or say ANYTHING about me--ever! Only wish I had discovered that 70 years ago!
I am free to live, to come and go almost at will, to be sober, to choose, to be at peace, to pray, to love, to roam, to ride that big scooter ("slow down big boy") and to be nearly always HAPPY! I have said for many years, that "www" we used to need in our Internet addresses--that "www" stood for "What a Wonderful World"!
Love to all, and Good Night...Dammmmit, it's late again (sigh!). And let's stay sober today...OK?