AS A MAN THINKETH
Tonight (ahem) I will be a speaker at the "Three legacies Group" of Alcoholics Anonymous. Two recent-discovered friends honored me by asking me to do this I am serious about the "honored" part. It so happens, this is the week of my Sober Anniversary. Every year for the past four or five, during this week I have been given the privilege to speak...it just "happens" that way. Usually those who ask me to participate do not realize this is my special week.
But I know it. I shall never forget it. Another blogger's post a couple days ago brought me the memory of WHY (bad word) I have not drank for all these years. I had been told to curtail my drinking to one pint of vodka daily. After a number of days, I was told to attend my first meeting of AA. Since I could not go there reeking of vodka (yep, it "smells"!), I had my last drink at midnight, the day before. And I knew, as I was pouring down those last few ounces, I knew that I would never, could never drink again. So that was that! My German grandmother would have said, "Das var dass"
I now know that if I THINK I will never drink again...I will NOT! (If I DO the Steps suggested, I will get better.)
If I think, "Well, I might drink again...only an arm's length, etc.", that leaves me with an out--for the next time life does not deal with me on my terms--grin!.
"As A Man Thinketh" by James Allen--yes, I read a book once--grin!--suggests to me that my thoughts can guide, motivate, control, and change me. And I just downloaded his book in .pdf format. I shall ask Flex to help me understand a couple things, and help direct my thinking this moment and the rest of today. Being me, I have to let God in on the act--for I believe that God speaks through all of us, James Allen included.
My "story" tonight will be different from my other speaking occasions, because my life is different, has changed. Growth "happens" now, whether I wish it or not. Perfect? Hell no! But whatever the score for today, it will end sober...for me, and I hope for many of you, my Peeps.
God bless us, everyone!