DRINKING ALCOHOL TAUGHT ME HOW TO FLY
THEN IT TOOK AWAY THE SKY

Monday, August 25, 2008

THEN and NOW



Fly little bird,
Fly with the wind.
For if you don't
You have sinned.

For the wind is the law
And the law is just.
Whence the wind blows
You also must.

So, fly sweet bird,
Fly with the wind.
For, if you do not
You have surely sinned.
--Steve E.

THE PAST:

..."And I remembered the creeping horror of the interminable night, in which I slept for short spells and woke dripping with cold sweat and shaken with utter despair, to drink hastily from my bottle and mercifully pass out again."--BB p 224 (3rd Edition) or p 202 (4th Edition) "Women Suffer Too"

This was EXACTLY me!...for SO many weeks, months, years?

THE PRESENT:

"Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us."
BB p 164

Imagine how simple is our program, really! The Twelve Steps are compacted here into four short sentences. It's as if I am the 'tall ship', and those four sentences are the 'star to steer her by'...CHANGE! All is well. God is in charge. Trust Him! He does what I cannot do for myself. And I do what I CAN do for myself. Gratefulness! ..."and the greatest of these is--LOVE!"

THE FUTURE:

"Ummmm...Say Wha...???

10 comments:

Kristin H. said...

Yes! It really is simple, isn't it?

indistinct said...

great post, thank you.

Shadow said...

oh what a wonderful post. and brilliant poem! just the thing for a monday afternoon!!!

Lou said...

Steve-O-Oh, sometimes I like your comments more than your posts..I mean equally. (HA=GRIN)

AlkySeltzer said...

Lou, I'll just post blanks under a date, and then write out several 'comments'...That works for me!

pat said...

Great post.

Syd said...

Thanks Steve. I like the Now better than the Then.

TraceyBaby said...

"He does what I cannot do for myself"~~He certainly does.

Hey, Steve, do you know....I thought somewhere in the Big Book it says something about "unscrambling" the brain. Any idea if that is in there and if so, where?

AlkySeltzer said...

Tracey, No. But I'm NOT an expert. My opinion is that the brain can't be unscrambled any more than can EGGS be unscrambled. Remember Humpty Dumpty? I'm jus sayin'...

In fact, many times each day, my brain goes into 'scrambled' mode. -g-
But I keep trying, as do you!
SE

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