BUDAPEST PEACE SIGN
CHANGES IN THE WIND
All my life, drunk or sober, I have been a terrible arguer. When am I terrible? That is when I argue without any facts, when I argue just for the sake of, and when I do so just to hear me talk loud. Terrible is for me to argue about inconsequential crapola, even fight over tomorrow's weather. Terrible is when I make insane statements--in fact, I know THAT is terrible because of the remorse I suffer later. Remorse, because of the sometimes trouble I have caused others or myself.
Terrible is to argue--or even to say anything--without first thinking. So that's "typical" ME. Now you know. Not a pretty sight. In our Big Book on page 84 is written "We have ceased fighting anything or anyone--even alcohol." Well, I got the "alcohol" part down real good right off. But I did not see, read, nor could have understood the "anyone or anything" concept. What an idea, arriving before its time --grin!
- So, where is all this leading? Well, I have "ceased arguing!" Yep, Peeps, you won't hear me say Fk more than once a day from now on.
- It is a huge philosophical change for me to say--and mean it--"You may be right". Only four words, and they can be used over and over--the "recipient" will not mind one bit.
- In the past--until four weeks ago--I could never let a disagreement end until I thought I had won.
- I'm working now to become a "seeker of peace" not necessarily among nations, but one-on-one. For that is where I now know peace begins--with me.
- I have become not only a believer, but I speak out now for Peeps who do not think, act, nor live like me, and their rights to live equally, peacefully, and as they know to be correct for themselves. I also expect the same treatment for myself, from others--this may not take place.
- Prior to a couple months ago, I thought my self-styled "benevolence" was being distributed by an "elevated form of tolerance" for certain groups, races, minorities, genders, and other lifestyles. During my trip I have found that we peeps are not different from one another--we are different WITH each other. For me (not trying to tell you how to think, here, peeps!), I have traded the word tolerance for the word LOVE.
Today's message from me is PEACE for all, and to all. I cannot help but combine that with prayers for a clean and sober day...and LOVE! Is there much else?