Sometimes I wonder,'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'How or Why did I Fk up this time?'
A PARABLE? MAYBE?
A teenager tells her Mother how everything has gone wrong. She is failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like some. The daughter says, 'Yep, Mom. I DO love your cake.'
'OK, have some cooking oil,' her Mother says.
'Oh, Yuck' says her daughter.
'How about a couple raw eggs?'
'That's gross, Mom!'
'Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?'
'Mom, that is all yucky!'
Mom answers: 'Sure, all those ingredients taste yucky all by themselves. But when I put them together in the proper order, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! '
God works the same way. Many times I have wondered why He lets me go through such bad and difficult times, often of my own making. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! I just have to trust Him and, eventually, somehow, they will all become something wonderful!
God is crazy about all of us. He sends us flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever I want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, yet He chooses your heart, my heart.
God can be forced out only by my willful Pride. Immediately I can feel the separateness, the exclusion, the coldness of being completely alone again (in a crowd?), atop my swirling, bottomless sea of nothingness. With no life raft, no anchor, no support. Without His outstretched loving Hand.
WE THOUGHT WELL BEFORE
TAKING THIS STEP
TAKING THIS STEP
The moment is here for me to kneel again before the Almighty Creator, and know that He is God...not ME! And I allow Him to enter my heart today. And I praise Him, and thank Him, and beg Him to let me experience anew His gentle, tender guidance. That, for me, means working the Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, God's Gift to me.
He brought me here, He wants me here, I am here. Why? To show others what He has done for me, to me, by freeing me once more from the bondage of myself. I know I am here to do His will. No other reason.
Love. Peace. More Love.