Listen, I've just GOT to write a short (HA!) follow-up to my blog entry of this past Monday, Sept 2 . I remember thinking (maybe writing?) that I received an "instant" Step 7 relief Monday at noon, in a church. This is my first real true experience of that nature ("UN-nature"?). Well, I was not 'talking through my hat' about that. It is GONE, that problem of Pride wearing the garment of False Humility. Of course, I AM cooperating with God on this, but HE did the removal, just like if I deleted a file in my computer. One day soon, I'll have to 'Wash' my mental Hard Drive, and then Defrag it, maybe re-install the OS--to you who might be new to computing, those are NOT dirty words!
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A contractor Emailed me Tuesday regarding an annual event, a performance of THE MESSIAH in late November. Each year I play this job, and each year I'm the last man in the section (remember, "False" low self esteem?). Of course, I'm always knowing that I could play anywhere in the violin section--it's not a matter of being capable, just a matter of me, 'pretending to be Humble'!! Also, there is that matter of building a potential for resentments over time, yes? YES!
This year she sent a message to all violinists, asking which chair (in the orchestra seating arrangement) we'd prefer to sit, and I fired an "E" right back at her saying "I'd like to be the first violinist, for a change."
Today, Wednesday, she sent a 'seating chart' and guess what? I'm the Concertmaster! Now, understand, this is really no "big deal", except to ME, and only in regard to my new-found freedom "to BE me".
The ONLY reason I'm posting this is to show someone--anyone?--that it works, our program works! These steps really, REALLY work, if I but live them, integrate them into my daily behaviors. And I cannot just make them work for say, twenty years, then say to myself, "Well, those steps do work. So now I can forget THAT!" No, no, no! This is a lifelong task of growth. As we all know, the more I grow, the more I'm able to allow God to use me to do His work.
And after we stop drinking.......isn't that what it's all about?
Gratefully, Peace and Love, from