DRINKING ALCOHOL TAUGHT ME HOW TO FLY
THEN IT TOOK AWAY THE SKY

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

THAT POWER IS OURS

POWER OR HIGHER POWER?



At the top right is the "JUST BEING REAL" award
handed to me by Just Be Real. Click HERE for
her blog, and please visit this wonderful
REALLY real girl


This Higher Power thing. I do not have trouble with it, for I do not ponder what may be wrong with the notion of God. As is popular to say nowadays, "I call Him God, 'cause that's His Name". I have, from day one, right or wrong, accepted everything Alcoholics Anonymous had to offer me, through people who seemed to know what they were talking about. I was really just THAT sick!


The only proof that I made a good choice, is that today I am still sober. Also, today I could not be more happy than if I'd "died-and-gone-to-heaven", as it were--but I ain't! Watch out folks, I'm old, but not dead. And for that I thank AA also--that I was able to 'get old'.


Imagine--as I look back--I had two heart attacks before age 34, and lots of other crap health-wise. And now, when they prop me up in a chair -grin! I don't wanna go out and play, I just wanna blog! And should ANYONE question why I took the bait of AA hook, line, and sinker, I'll tell 'em exactly why. I don't KNOW! I'll show them now, though. I'll pass them at 100 mph on my scooter (and kill myself, proving--WHAT did you say?)?


Admittedly, AA is NOT for everyone, nor is Buddhism for everyone. All I can say unequivocally is that it IS for me. Thank You, Higher Power. Thank You, God!


This morning I was traveling from my AA meeting to the eye doctor who planted lenses in my eyeballs last fall. He said, "Everything is looking good." Whereupon I thought, "Why does he not ask ME how everything is looking? I'm the patient here." So I told him I see roaches on the walls at night, crawling, crawling. Then when I reach out to grab one, nothing is there but wall. He says, "Well that's something which may clear up in time." Oh well, since I am SO HAPPY with my eyesight since the surgeries, I really have no complaint.


But hold on, I got off topic again. Riding my bike to the doctor visit, I was being tailgated by one of those fancy dandy pickup trucks, driven by a guy whose father died young, and left him a pile of unspent drug money. He was rumbling along bearing down on me, right on my butt, and my butt was uncomfortable. And so was I. So I called on my Higher Power of the moment, named Suzuki. And I gave Suzu the gas, and the power I felt--OK, my butt felt it--was akin to leaving earth on a flight to Mars, or wherever they're traveling these days.


I rear-mirrored the truck, and it looked a lot smaller--three blocks behind me. And I thought, the power in my bike is similar to that Power over heaven and earth called God. It is there constantly, and always, helping me to idle along, or to pass a slower vehicle. And when I am in deep shit trouble, I can--and do--choose to call on that Power for EXTRA help.

The help from God I receive, that unseen and unfelt Roaring Power, is almost always now, immediate, plentiful, consoling, forgiving, loving, and lasting. Next time, I only have to remember the previous time.


Note: It was not always thus. This kind of God-Power "Quick-Launch" came only after some years of dedicated practice, and remembering to pull out the throttle. When I received my new bike one year ago, I did not dream it might prove to be a conduit for my learning, for my spiritual growth...and OH! Do I still need to grow spiritually, Oh my, Yessss! Perfection is unattainable, but striving for it is NOT.


And I know where to go. I just love the people where I go. My church is full of peeps, trying consistently to be better people of God. And AA meetings make it for me. The Steps, Traditions, sponsor, connecting with friends, opportunities to meet and help new guys, YOU BLOG PEEPS...I just am in love with it ALL! "And here, WITH the Grace of God, go ME!"

In LOVE and Service,

Sincerely.

Steve E

19 comments:

Mike Golch said...

Amen!!!!!!!!God bless you my brother.

Atiyanna said...

(((HUGS)))
~A

Gin said...

I appreciate your post so much. Your enthusiasm & joy for life is refreshing. I don't mean that to sound so clinical, but that is how it makes me feel - refreshed.

Shadow said...

keep going. even if it's on a suzuki, heee heee heee. and what's up with the cockroaches??? never mind, i (think) know you were just kidding around...

Lou said...

You left that guy in the dust, eh! Now watch, you will see him today at an AA meeting, maybe even end up sponsoring him (or at least writing another blond about it;)

dAAve said...

enjoy your day, Steve

Just Be Real said...

Oh that is too cool Stevie! Yeah, you probably will see him again real soon. Just put gas to the pendal my man! Blessings!

pat said...

You are too much.

Joe said...

I hope you are wearing a helmet...

therapydoc said...

Oh, you'll love it out here. Much better than drinking. (I found you at Cat's blog).

Prayer Girl said...

Sometimes blog ideas or other important thoughts come into my mind while I'm biking down the road.....especially in the morning.

God speaks to me and I am able to listen. Love it, love you.

ME

Kristin H. said...

I have to admit that your bike posts make me a liiiitle nervous. You wear a helmet, right?

Gabriella Moonlight said...

Great post and lovely sentiments indeed, although the cockroaches situation is a bit creepy to me...LOL!

Love ya,
G

Lou said...

In my comment I meant BLONG, not BLOND..argghh

Steve E. said...

Lou, we ALL knew that! See, we KNOW you! Right? Blondie?

Also "roach thingie" is simply spots (which I see)left over from Sept.
surgeries, which will either go away, or they won't and I do not give a RF either way!

AND FYI peeps, YESSSSS, I DO wear a helmet. Always! But thanks for your concern. Be safe out there, everyone!

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I name all cockroaches Frank. It makes them much more personable when I'm inviting them to exit stage right...out the door or down the toilet or I celebrate by getting them smashed :)

I love that suzzzzuuuu zuuuu zuuuu ki is a spiritual experience...

Cat said...

Ah Steve have a grand day! Whats left of it!

Sherrlyn Borkgren Photography said...

Love your blog! God gives us the peace that truly passes all understanding.(if only I would let go)

My website name was kidnapped by an ip Melbourne company two days ago and it looks hopeless to get it back. But I still have my blog. Nice to find your blog.

Ed G. said...

Steve - congrats on yet another award!!!

I notice that you've run out of blog sidebar space to keep them all - so, are you going to set up another blog just to collect them?

Probably not ;-)

Anyway - serious congrats on the award - you deserve them all and a lot more...

Thank you for you...